#Journal

Jumat, 28 Mei 2021   I used to think who would be so dumb as to take drugs to forget someone? And now. So this is how it feels. Everything hits differently when I was finally old enough to fully understand the world and how it works. Everything wasn't this depressing when I was younger. Now I clearly understand. My whole life has been about loneliness and the fear of ending up alone. But life is about to end up alone.

   Selasa, 18 Mei 2021   Ferry, you such a stupid boy. You keep on begging. You keep on crying. Waiting by outside her door. Don't you know what you did? I was wrong. I hurt your feelings when I did what I did. I learned my lesson. I'll stop acting like a kid. Can you give me one more chance?

    Rabu, 7 April 2021   Belakangan ini aku seperti mulai dari nol lagi. Banyak hal yang sampai saat ini masih belum ada peningkatan signifikan. Dihantui rasa kegagalan itu ngeri sekali.